I always believed in faith and had faith in life.
I met with my brother here in Kyoto and he asked me,"Are you still doing it?!" meaning are you still doing what I believe to be true. I said of course, adding that if we are not pursuing it he wouldn't be running a dojo with a Kyokushin banner(￣▽￣) lol.
Intuition tries to stop us from failing. It is in our instinct but conversely, it is a barometer for feeling the opposite. If we don't pursue what makes us happy we will regret it rest of our lives. I may change courses but generally I don't give up. Now, doing anything Kyokushin related like I do now, almost as a full time job with hardly any monetary benefits does not sound like happiness. When I started to help and take after my mother and my sister's, that alone gave me a sense of purpose. Especially for my mother because when my father passed away, too many things were taken away from her. Including what students meant to her. The most active one' s that led Kyokushin to break up, quit in middle of the feud they started ! Amazing really. And they still have the gall to make their students call them shihans and make them buy and wear Kyokushin Kai Gi when the karate is called something else!! Funnily no one is suing his "bleep". Which makes me think, maybe that is my job?(~_~;)
A story I recounted on this trip to the media was about not giving up. They asked what makes me continue. And I thought of this young man who is with
Midori now but came to Honbu almost everyday while he was in Japan for their tournament last year. He was like five years old when the whole break up happened and even then, he was begging to train where "Sosai walked and trained". It sheds a different light on where my focus should be.
